And just looking at a lot of old pictures and thinking about old memories. I’m looking at all these pictures I have, which are all divided into events they were taken at. And looking at all those pictures, I can still remember how I felt and what I was going through at those times. Most of my high school years, I was sad and closed off. Sometimes I regret that, and I wish that I could have just let it go, and open up to people more. And well, I guess thats just not me. Thats not even the point of this post though. I apologize in advance because I’m just feeling a million things right now, and this post will be very jumbled and mixed with random things in my mind.
Anyway, so I was looking through the events, feeling funny about the past, and then I came across an event that changed my life. It was one of my good friend’s birthday. And that day was exciting like any other birthday for me would be, but little did I know that it would change the rest of my life. That night, I met Francis. If I had never met him, I wouldn’t be who I am today, and in all honesty, I can say that I wouldn’t be happy. He showed me love again, that I could trust someone again, that there was more to my life than what I thought there was, and he still teaches me how to love life and how to grow everyday. I’m so thankful for that.
And to even think that I hesitated to be with him boggles my mind sometimes. I don’t know what changed my mind, but one day, I just realized he was what I needed. I can still remember where I was, what day it was, and what I was doing when it just dawned on me. My feelings always creep up on me at the most random times. I remember I was in the bathroom during the movie P.S. I love you, which I was watching with him, and I just suddenly told myself, “Steph, stop being a chicken. Take a chance for once. It’s about time.” And I did. And I never looked back, and I don’t intend to.